The emotions of yesterday were in part from thinking of Teagan's eight month mark, but it was so much more than that. I was so overwhelmed with so many different emotions. Mostly, I felt humility and gratitude to my Savior, for his sacrifice. My thinking has changed from 'He died for my sins' to 'He died for me, so I could have my family forever'. Because He died, our separation from Teagan is a temporary one. And because He lives, we will live together as a family someday. There is no greater gift.
This video touched my heart and I wanted to share it. We sang the song, "I Know That My Redeemer Lives" at Teagan's graveside service. One of those songs that I won't be able to sing without crying anymore!
He lives! To silence all my fears
He lives! To wipe away my tears
He lives! To calm my troubled heart
He lives! With blessings to impart
He lives! To wipe away my tears
He lives! To calm my troubled heart
He lives! With blessings to impart
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I thought of you all day on Easter and kept meaning to call and send a text and then I thought I had and I didn't, I'm sorry. Easter is still a tough day for me, and I figured it would be tough for you. You remember more profoundly that you'll get to be with her again, but I think it also acts to make you miss her so much more, because it seems like so far away! At least that's how I feel. And I really miss having two girls to dress up in pretty dresses!
I like that song as well. Your kids looked pretty cute in their Easter clothes!
Thought of you dear, lots of prayers your way.
It looks like you guys had a fun Easter. I love this time year and I am so grateful for the knowledge we have, to know that we will be with our loved ones again. Always thinking and praying for you. Miss you guys, I think you should come to Texas for a visit! :)
Happy 8 months sweet teagen. I also love that song... Such a profound meaning. What you say is true. I can't wait for the day were all reunited. Hugs mama!!
Apparently (and of course!) I wasn't that only one that had you on my mind at Easter. I imagined it to be a great "reminder" day for you in regard to the blessing of Christ having conquered death that we might live agin with our loved ones in eternal happiness with them. But I also imagined it to be a hard "reminder" day as well and it sounds like it might have been just that. I pray for you always!
I agree with you! A great reminder that we will see our babies again. I am only 2 months out from the loss of my son and there were many tears on Easter!
That song is always so hard for me. I always explain to my kids that this holiday is SO special to our family because it is a day to remember how much the Savior has done for our family - made it possible to be with Beckett again FOREVER.
Any holiday is hard but having to also be reminded of Teagen's being 8 months old would make it especially tough. I was thinking of you and hope that you are doing better ((Hugs))
I think of the atonement the same way. Easter was really hard for me last year because it had only been a few months since Ella passed away.
This year, it was more contemplative. Just lots of thoughts of gratitude and peace.
There's a certain version of I know that my Redeemer lives that gets me almost every time. Such a great song. A testimony set to music.
I can't wait for the second coming either.... a blessing for angel baby moms. We don't fear that day in the way that some people might.
Gotta love when those days fall on/close to holidays. I felt the same way when P's 7 months was on Christmas. Easter has such a new meaning for me. I am grateful for that forsure. But why do I still think, couldn't I have just learned that another way! HAAH
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